What does one do when life becomes so many things that you never thought it would? Some for the better but most seem to be not what you expected. But then of course if you expected it then you wouldn't have a second thought about it.
When you start out on your own at a young age you "plan" your life. I am sure there must have been people along the way that told me that most of the time, that plan would not be the path that you have to walk in your life. But I sure didnt take much stock in it if they did. I thought that I was always doing the things that would make my life play out as I had planned.
Enter children with minds of their own and influenced by the life they grew up with. Oh I have sooo much to be thankful for that my kids grew up without getting in any trouble. I am not so dense as to believe that they didn't try drugs (hopefully nothing that changed them for life) and had their taste of liquor. But they were good kids. They are still wonderful adult kids. Its just that when they were little and I was holding them and rocking them, I imagined what their life would be like. Maybe it was pie in the sky thinking, but are we not suppose to hope, wish, dream and most of all pray that their lives would be good with a minimum of problems?
I struggle watching my kids struggling with life and now grand kids that are of age. I would like to believe (stupidly) that I have all the answers, if only they would ask. Well sometimes I interject my opinions even when they are not wanted. But the fact is I do NOT have the answers and sometimes that drives me nuts. Oh to be able to pick them up, hold them tight, give them a kiss and make everything OK for them.
Sandi,,, you canNOT recapture yesterday,, you do not have a promise of tomorrow,, so treasure today.
