Being a Grandma

There is one thing I have learned being a Grandma.  And that is that you never speak what you feel is truth  to your grandchildren.  They just dont want to hear it.  They want you to be the person that is always nice.  SO...... that is my resolve... to only speak sweet words to my grandchildren.

Daddy

If my Dad were alive, today he would be 113 years old.  My father passed away in 1972 at the age of 74.  I was very angry with God for a long time that he took my Dad.  It was kind of a "miracle" that I got over that anger.    I have not forgotten him even tho he has been gone 39 years. 

At one time I panicked because I could not remember my Dad's face.  That was probably just a few years after he had passed away.  Maybe 10 years.  I was so distraught by that.  A few nights later, I had a dream, and my dad was looking in a window at me, and do you know, I have never forgotten his face since then.

Daddy was the kindest, and strongest man I have ever known.  Oh not physically strong as he had polio as a young boy and suffered some physical problems from that.  But, Wow,, I was blessed to have him as my Dad.

One would think

One would think at my age, life would become a little less,,mmmmmm whats the word????  simple?  Well it doesn't seem to be.  In fact most days I wonder where I took a wrong turn.  This road doesn't look much like the one I was traveling.  There are so many more twists and turns on this road then the one I traveled a few years ago.  Is it because of my age, or maybe it is just because I have so many more memories and things to compare things to.  I try to take each day and be happy for that day.  It is my goal.  But I have to be truthful, most days, I cant hold just today without thinking about the past or the future.  And that really is stupid huh?  the past I cant bring back or do anything about and the future,, well it isn't here yet. 

Well just musing..

Just wondering

Even tho we are having a winter thaw, I was just sitting here wondering if spring is here or if we are in for another blast of winter.  Something tells me, winter is still out there lurking!!!

My Emma

This beautiful young lady is my granddaughter Emmalee.  Today my heart is so with her and I am wishing I could be with her in person.  I would love to wrap my arms around her and hold her and tell her that EVERYTHING is going to be perfect.  But I am not there with her and even if I was I could not promise her everything is going to be perfect.  But I can promise her that I will always love her, I will always pray for her and I hope that I am always there for her.

I love you Emma.  You are a treasure.

Just plain cold

You know, I live in Minnesota and I should be used to just about any kind of weather Mother Nature can throw at us.  (Well I would not like to have a tsunami or an earthquake, that would really shake my world), but this year I am really growing weary of snow and cold.  I don't know if it is because it has been a really long winter already or if it is because I am getting older and this cold, snow and dark really are getting to me.  I can tell you every day that the days get a bit longer I am happy.  I have February 26th as a milestone to look forward to as it was on that day we took Eric home from the hospital and when we got home it was a few minutes after 6 and the sun was just setting.  I am looking forward to being able to come home from work, eat dinner and still have a bit of sun left.  I feel like I have become a lump of lard this winter with so little energy to do things. 

Our bosses took us to lunch today.  It was interesting talking to them about retirement.  They are sure it would be best for me to wait until I am 66 to retire.   I have my heart set on January of next year.  I hope we can make it work.

I am working on the tax packages to send to the CPA so he can do the taxes on them.  I am missing Carol as I do them, as there are some things she did that I don't really understand, but I am doing my best and the CPA will question me if it looks wrong to him.

Well I guess I have gone on long enough.. Just doing a bit of venting.