Man - Glad this check shreding is done for now

My heart is so heavy right now and the tears are right at the brim of my eyes.  I just finished shredding the last of the checks from Gil's and my checkbook back from the early 1990's.  Seeing his handwriting puts such a deep ache in my heart and I miss him so  SO DOGGONE much.  God took him way too early from this earth.  We had so many plans.  I guess that just goes to show how much weight our plans hold.  Life is so fragile.  We don't know if we will have next year or even next month or tomorrow.  

These feelings I get about Gil have nothing to do with my relationship with and love for Jim.  They are 2 totally different things.  I am thankful for Jim in my life.  He is a great companion and Friend whom I love. But there are these times that I see, or hear, or smell something, and memories of Gil flood my whole being and I ache.  I guess that is what love is all about.  Memories go on and keep that love alive.