Thursday, June 14, 2007

Why Stress???

I am not feeling well today and haven't for a couple of days. I think most of it is due to stress. And I wonder what am I stressed about. When I, in my waking hours I don't think there is anything that is stressing me out. But my body awake and even in my sleep tells a different story. Yesterday there was the migraine headache and at night for years now the clenching of the teeth. And today that constant feeling like I am at a nervous full alert. Is hard to explain it, but it feels like there must be adrenalin flowing through my veins ready to take on whatever comes my way. I really hate this feeling.

I know that as a Christian, I need to rest in Christ. I am sure of my salvation and I know that God is able to handle anything that comes his way when we bring it to him in prayer.

I see people who are not Christians and should have guilty consciences and things coming at them from all sides and they sleep so peacefully, and they don't experience anxiety. I wonder why I do. Is it part of my make up? If it is, is there anything I can do to change that? If it is not part of my genetic make up, then why, why, why do I struggle with it soooooo much.

There is so much about me that I would like to change and it seems I do so little to change it. Some of it I have no idea about how to change. Other areas, ie my weight, I know I should eat less and exercise more, but, wow that is a hard one to do.

So, I keep on,, hoping that one day I get it all figured out and I can live in peace in my sub-conscience as well in my waking hours.



At 3:54 PM , Blogger Kimberly said...

This is one of the areas in which I'm CERTAIN, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that God placed you in my life to encourage and sympathize with me about. I found myself nodding my head thru a lot of your post fact, the whole idea of change is what I wrote about in my blog yesterday; albeit from a little different perspective. :)

Who knows why we struggle but in the struggle there is blessings to be had, of that I'm learning. And if it takes struggles on my part to receive those blessings or to be able to be used of God to pass on blessings to others, than I'm all for it. I know for me, the anxiety worsens when I'm not taking care of myself physically, in the ways I eat and exercise. So there is a lesson for me right there, isn't there? :)

There is a Mercy Me song that goes like this:

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I love that song. And I love you, too!!! :) :) :)


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